Caribou Island
- Автор: Vann David
- Год: 2011
- Язык: испанский
- Год: Harper
- Жанр: Современная русская и зарубежная проза
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But this island is not right for Irene. They are building without plans or advice, and when winter comes early, the overwhelming isolation of the prehistoric wilderness threatens their bond to the core. Caught in the emotional maelstrom is their adult daughter, Rhoda, who is wrestling with the hopes and disappointments of her own life. Devoted to her parents, she watches helplessly as they drift further apart.
Brilliantly drawn and fiercely honest, Caribou Island captures the drama and pathos of a husband and wife whose bitter love, failed dreams, and tragic past push them to the edge of destruction. A portrait of desolation, violence, and the darkness of the soul, it is an explosive and unforgettable novel from a writer of limitless possibility.
He saved her expensive sleeping bag and other small bits of gear. A headlamp, a tiny stove, a knife. But every last scrap of clothing went in the hole, and he felt better, a lot better. Her pack lighter now, something he could carry in one hand.
So then he was on to the phone. Called his mother collect. I have to get out of here, he said.
What about Monique? she asked.
Left me for a dentist. An old guy, like forty or something.
Oh pumpkin.
Yeah, he said, tears forming, feeling sorry for himself. Hearing his mom’s voice brought out all the self-pity.
You’ll find someone else, she said.
Yeah, he said. He could hardly speak, his chest tight, and this whole scene struck him as ridiculous, laughable. But you can’t fake feelings, and he was grateful to have his mom, someone in the world who would help him out. She said she’d deposit cash in his account within an hour so he could get dinner and a bus to Anchorage in the morning, and she’d book a flight. Expressions of love, and then he was walking to the beach to pitch his tent. He had wanted to find Mark to thank him, but now he just didn’t care. He was through with Alaska.
26
The first fall storm. Gary leaned into blasts of wind and rain as he tried to nail the next layer of logs. Time. He hadn’t finished on time, and now he would pay the price. A thirty-degree drop in temperature, the sky gone dark, a malevolence, a beast physical and intent. You could see why the ancients gave names. The lake a corollary beast, awakened also into whitecaps, breaking waves, cresting six feet high, pounding the shore. The wind in blasts, compressed, colder and colder, born in the icefield, accelerated in the wind tunnel over Skilak Glacier, funneled by mountains.
Atol ytha gewealc, Gary called out, the terrible surging of the waves. Irene in the tent, so he was alone and could speak. Bitre breostceare, bitter heart-care, hu ic oft throwade, how I often suffered, geswincdagum, in days of toil, atol ytha gewealc. He had always wanted to go to sea because of that poem, but never had. This storm now perhaps the closest he had come. Iscealdne sae, ice-cold sea, winter wunade, in winter inhabited, wraeccan lastum, in paths of exile, and this was true. He had lived almost his entire adult life in exile, in Alaska, a self-exile as good as any sea, and he wanted now to experience the very worst this storm could throw at him. He wanted the snows to come early, he wanted to suffer. He wanted to pay a price. Bring it on, fucker, he yelled into the storm. Isigfethera, he yelled. Icy-feathered.
He tried to catch a glimpse of the boat at the shore, but the rain drove into his eyeballs, pinpricks, the air so thick with water he couldn’t see more than fifty feet. The boat driven onto the shore already, battered and pounded against rocks, but it was aluminum and would survive, unfortunately. Better if it were wood and smashed, its keel broken, no way ever to leave, better if the island were uninhabited by others, no one to go to for help. Gary wanted to be desolate, alone, not even Irene to witness. He wanted her to disappear, vanish, never have been. Bitter woman, sulking in the tent, contriving punishments worse than any storm.
Gary held the wood in place and kept driving nails, compacting the wood, forming a wall that would keep out nothing. Wood a satisfaction because it was once alive. A way to strike back at the earth, a way to mete out his own small punishment.
He stood on the platform swaying and catching his balance in each new blast, anchored by his left hand on the wood. Holding nails in his teeth, more in his pocket. Taste of galvanized steel. Arms and shoulders ropy now, fit, corded from work, enough time out here. Muscles a way to remember and return, hard work the only solace. So he pounded for hours, cut new logs, sawed their ends and lifted into place, hammered again. Rammed braces below, trued the walls a bit, didn’t care they would never be true. The platform become a cage, a place of battle.
The tent a different battleground entirely. Old lump seething, waiting. But none of this was true, of course. He could see he was just getting himself worked up in the storm. Real life not so simple. His relation to the lump not so simple. But it was good to stand out here and blow a bit, and now he was hungry for lunch.
Hey Reney, he said as he unzipped the tent. Room for an old man in there?
He heard what sounded like a grunt, ducked in fast and closed the zipper.
Wow, he said. The storm’s for real.
Don’t get our stuff wet.
I’m being careful, he said. And he kept to the edge near the flap as he stripped off his coat and bibs and boots. Good to have a tent with full standing headroom, he said, but he could see it was catching a lot of wind. Irene lying down in her sleeping bag. Still not feeling well? he asked.
No.
Were you able to sleep?
No.
Is it because of the tent moving around in the wind?
Yeah, that and the pain. And not being home.
Sorry, he said.
It’s okay. I know we have to be out here building to finish before the snows.
Gary crawled over to his own sleeping bag beside her. Midday but dark. It won’t take long, he said. I promise. We’ll be in the cabin and have a roof.
Irene didn’t say anything in response. She was curled facing the other way.
So he lay in his sleeping bag, looked up into blue nylon, faintly backlit. The movement berserk, the sound unbelievable. Like living in a hurricane. Lying here, you could start to feel afraid, even though nothing was wrong. The tent wasn’t going to blow down. The storm wasn’t going to come in. They were safe. But if you spent enough time living in this confined space, you could begin to believe anything. You could feel the end coming. Terror fabricated from nothing, from nylon and wind. The mind that frail.
You could go crazy lying in this tent, he said to Irene.
Yep.
Maybe you should come outside for a bit.
Nope.
It’s not so bad out there. Cold but not that cold. And the raingear works.
No thanks.
She was losing it, he could tell. Going a little nuts in here. But there was nothing he could do, really. They couldn’t take the boat out in this storm even if they wanted to. So he closed his eyes and tried to catch a little shut-eye. Then he’d have some food and go back out to build. It was a simple cabin. It shouldn’t be taking so long. He needed to just nail it all up.
He tried not to think about the cabin. He could never sleep if he spiraled off into thoughts. And he tried to ignore the sound of the tent, but after about twenty minutes, he gave up. He grabbed the peanut butter and jelly, made a sandwich, and put on his raingear as he ate.
I’m going, he said.
My regards to the storm.
Ha, he said, and stepped out into the blast, zipped the tent quickly. He turned his back to the wind, feeling a quick chill even through raingear, and jammed the last of the sandwich. Finished chewing, put some nails in his mouth. A little galvi for dessert, he told himself, and he liked this part, hunching into the wind and grabbing a hammer. He could have been a Viking heading off into a storm wearing only hides and a sword and shield. Or maybe a war hammer, a big piece of iron on the end of a stick. He could have done it. He would have been tough enough. Rowing and sailing, the blast of spray with each wave, days or even weeks on the water waiting for land to appear. And when it did make itself out of the fog, they’d sneak along that coast looking for a town, something small, perched on a headland or hidden up in a cove. And they’d blast ashore right onto the beach, the prow hitting sand, and leap over the side with their hammers and swords and spears and slaughter the men who had come to meet them. The feel of bringing a hammer down on another man’s head. Like nothing else, Gary was sure. Brutal and true. Like animals, nothing deceptive. Just the stronger killing the weaker.