Go Tell the Bees That I Am Gone

“Let’s go up to the springhouse,” I said, turning toward the path. “I fancy a cup of cold milk, and I daresay Grandda would like some cheese with his supper.

“So,” I went on casually, leading the way up the path. “Where were you and Fanny when she happened to say that to you?”

“Down by the creek, Grannie,” he said readily enough. “She got leeches on her legs and I was pullin’ ’em off for her.”

Well, that’s quite the romantic setting, I thought but didn’t say, envisioning Fanny sitting on a rock with her skirts hiked up, long coltish legs white and leech-spattered.

“See,” he went on, and came up beside me, now anxious to explain, “I was teachin’ her le Français, she wants to learn it, so I was telling her the words for leech, and waterweed, and how to say things like, ‘Give me food, please,’ and ‘Go away, ye wicked sod.’”

“How do you say, ‘Go away, you wicked sod’?” I asked, diverted.

“Va t’en, espèce de méchant,” he said, shrugging.

“I’ll remember that,” I said. “Never know when it might come in handy.”

He didn’t respond; plainly the matter occupying his mind was too serious for diversion. He’d been badly shocked, I saw.

“How did you happen to know what voulez-vous coucher means, Germain?” I asked curiously. “Did Fanny tell you?”

He hunched his shoulders and blew out his cheeks like a bullfrog, then shook his head, letting his breath go.

“No. Papa said it to Maman one night, whilst she was cooking supper, and she laughed and said … something I didna quite hear …” He looked away. “So I asked Papa next day, and he told me.”

“I see.” He probably had, and very directly. Fergus had been born and grown up in a Paris brothel, to the age of nine, when Jamie had inadvertently collected him. He dealt with his past by being honest about it, and I didn’t suppose it would have occurred to him to evade his children’s questions, no matter what they asked.

We’d reached the new springhouse, a squat little stone-built structure straddling a likewise stone-lined ditch through which the water from the House Spring flowed. Buckets of milk and crocks of butter were sunk in the water, keeping cold, and wrapped cheeses sat quietly hardening on a shelf above, out of the reach of occasional muskrats. It was dim inside, and very cold; our breath wisped out when we stepped inside.

I took down the gourd dipper from its nail, squatted, and took the lid off the bucket that held the morning’s milk. I stirred it to mix the risen cream back in, drew a dipperful, and drank. It was cold enough to feel it sliding down my gullet, and delicious. I took a last swallow and handed Germain the dipper.

“Do you think Fanny knew what she was saying?” I asked, watching him as he squatted to draw his own milk. He didn’t look up, but he nodded, the top of his fair head bobbing over the dipper.

“Aye,” he said at last, and stood up, turning away from me as he reached up to hang the dipper on its nail. “Aye, she kent what it meant. She—she … touched me. When she said it.” Dim as it was, I could see the back of his neck darken.

“And what did you say?” I asked, hoping I sounded entirely calm.

He swung round and glared at me, as though it were somehow my fault. He had a mustache of cream, absurdly touching.

“I said awa’ and bile your heid! What else?”

“What indeed?” I said lightly. “I’ll talk to Grand-père about it.”

“You’re no going to tell him what Fanny said to me, are ye? I didna mean to get her in bother!”

“She’s not in trouble,” I assured him. Not the sort he meant, at least. “I just want your grandfather’s opinion about something. Now cut along”—I made a shooing gesture at him—“I have a hog to deal with.”

By contrast with what he’d just told me, three hundred pounds of pork chops, lard, and rotting intestines seemed trivial.