Crossroads
- Автор: Франзен Джонатан
- Год: 2021
- Язык: английский
- Год: Farrar, Straus and Giroux
- Жанр: Современная русская и зарубежная проза
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Universally recognized as the leading novelist of his generation, Jonathan Franzen is often described as a teller of family stories. Only now, though, in *Crossroads* , has he given us a novel in which a family, in all the intricacy of its...
“Can we finish the game first?”
“Probably not.”
“You promised we’d play tonight.”
“We started it tonight. We’ll finish it tomorrow.”
Absorbing this sophistry, Judson stared at the board. “It’s your move,” he said.
Each player had forty pieces whose identities were concealed to his opponent. The object was to capture your opponent’s flag, via the slaughter of lesser pieces by pieces of greater rank, while avoiding deadly collisions with your opponent’s bombs, which were immotile and removable only by your very low-ranking miners. In classical strategy, you planted your flag at the rear of your forces and surrounded it with bombs, but Judson had apparently now grasped the weakness of this strategy: as soon as your opponent could advance a miner, unscathed, to the protecting bombs, your flag was helpless and the game was over. Observing Judson’s guileless excitement about his new idea, Perry could have pretended to be surprised by it and let him win the game. Instead, anticipating Judson’s more freewheeling placement of bombs, he’d deployed his own miners in more forward positions. It was plausibly good to beat Judson again and again, teaching him to not betray his strategy, forcing him to develop his skills, until he was able to win fair and square. Wouldn’t Judson’s happiness then be all the greater for being hard earned? Or was this merely the rationalization of an intelligent person who selfishly hated losing, even to his little brother?
Becky in her boots had clattered down the stairs, bound for the Crossroads concert, and Perry had defused the third of Judson’s bombs, at the nugatory sacrifice of a miner to a captain, when the telephone rang. He went and picked up on the extension in the parental bedroom.
“Yeah, ah—Perry?” his father said. His voice sounded strained and metallically distorted. There was street noise in the background. “Can I speak to your mother?”
“She’s not here.”
“She already went to the Haefles’?”
“No. I haven’t seen her all day.”
“Ah, okay, so. When you see her, can you tell her not to wait for me? There’s a problem with the car—I’m still in the city. Can you tell her she should just go on without me? It’s important that one of us be there.”
“Sure. But what if she—”
“Thanks, Perry. Thank you so much. Thank you. Thank you.”
With notable haste, his father ended the call. Likewise notable had been the guilty look he’d given Perry some hours earlier, when Perry spotted him and Mrs. Cottrell in the family car.
Perry placed the receiver in its cradle and pondered what to do. Mrs. Cottrell was, without question, a fox—not only in the salacious sense of the word but in her slyness. In his encounters with her since Larry Cottrell had made the dumb mistake of getting high while babysitting, Perry had detected a sharpening of her interest in him, a glint of mischief in her eyes. Larry had sworn to Perry that he hadn’t narked him out, but his mother obviously suspected who’d sold him the dime bag. And now Perry had discovered, by accident, at the corner of Pirsig and Maple, a dangerous liaison between Mrs. Cottrell and the Reverend Father. To be busted by the Reverend now, after forming his resolution and liquidating the asset, would be the height of irony.
Impelled by worry, after watching his father speed away on Pirsig, he’d postponed the rest of his Christmas shopping and walked to the Cottrell residence for a word with Larry. If all Larry’s mother had was a suspicion, and if she happened to voice it to the Reverend, Perry could simply deny everything. The worry was that Larry was weak. If he’d fingered Perry by name, despite swearing that he hadn’t, denials would not avail.
Larry could have been Exhibit A in Becky’s contention that Perry merely used people. For a while, Perry had dodged him at Crossroads meetings and inventively deflected his invitations to hang out. Larry was immature, a squeaker, a newcomer, and thus of scant utility to Perry in his quest to reach the center of Crossroads. But Perry couldn’t baldly reject him without running afoul of Crossroads precepts. One day, after school, Larry attached himself to Perry and Ansel Roder as they made their way to Roder’s house. Roder was in a magnanimous mood that day. Learning that Larry had never tried pot and very much wanted to, he included him in the passing of the bong, whereupon Larry embarrassed Perry. With ear-grating giggles, he offered a running play-by-play of his mind’s reaction to chemical insult, and when Roder finally told him to shut the fuck up he gigglingly explicated his insulted mind’s reaction to it. He giggled, too, when he bumped into Roder’s turntable and harmed the LP that was playing. Roder took Perry aside and said, “I don’t want that kid here again.” Perry was of similar opinion, but Larry, serenely unaware of how uncoolly he’d behaved, proceeded to pester him to be included in future festivities. He was a poignant figure, messed up by the recent death of his father. To sell him drugs would have been a pure kindness if it hadn’t also made rationally self-interested sense: here was a loyal customer, a known quantity, whose mother gave him a handsome allowance. To then smoke with him the pot he bought might likewise have been construable as charity, an act of friendship, if it hadn’t accorded with Perry’s strategic desire to be less dependent on Roder’s generosity, and with certain other benefits. It was proving pleasant to Perry to have an adoring acolyte in Crossroads, pleasant to see his foxy mother up close, in her den, pleasant to exercise his dexterity on the model airplanes that Larry could afford with his allowance, pleasant to dip brushes into the nifty square bottles of paint he’d long coveted at the hobby shop. Not until Larry got himself busted by his mother—semi-deliberately, as a self-destructive way of defying her, Perry suspected—did the costs of their friendship outweigh the benefits. Larry had promised his mother he wouldn’t buy more pot, and Perry, despite having lost him as a customer, was obliged to remain friends with him, lest he be hurt and nark him out.
The Cottrell house was a white brick Colonial, impressively large for a widow and two children. Larry was at home with his kid sister and invited Perry in from the snow.
“We have a problem,” Perry said when they were in Larry’s bedroom. “I just saw your mother with my father.”
“Yeah, they’re doing some church thing in the city.”
“Well, so, I have to ask again. Is our secret safe with you?”
Among Larry’s insecure tics was rubbing the sebaceous nodes around his nose and sniffing his fingertips. Perry, too, enjoyed the smell of his own sebum, but such sniffing was better done privately.
“You understand why I’m asking.”
“You don’t have to be paranoid,” Larry said. “The whole thing’s over, except that I can’t watch TV for another nine days. I’m going to miss the Orange Bowl.”
“No mention of my name, then.”
“I already swore to you. Do you want me to get a Bible?”
“No need. I just hadn’t imagined your mom going into the city with my dad. It was only the two of them. I have a bad feeling that we haven’t heard the last of this.”
“What did you expect? You’re the one who sells dope.”
“Exactly my point. My exposure is potentially far more serious than yours.”
“I’m already the one who got punished.”
“You’re the one who made the mistake, my friend.”
Larry nodded, touching his face again. “What’s in the bag?”
“A present for my brother. Do you want to see it?”
He was glad of the chance to let Larry admire the movie camera, to wind it up and shoot imaginary footage with him, before it became irrevocably Judson’s. After an hour, which was the minimum duration for his visit to pass as a friendly social call, rather than the targeted instrumentality it actually had been, he headed home through snow swirling down from a dark sky. He didn’t think Larry would break, even under renewed pressure, but the irony of getting busted now, when he’d resolved to be a better person, was persuasively vivid to him. He still feared mischief from Mrs. Cottrell, and there was another worrisome loose end. In the days since Becky had annihilated him as a person, in the coat closet at First Reformed, she’d seemed more pissed off with him than ever. He imagined a full-scale family Confrontation in which he insisted on his innocence—with a kind of retroactive honesty, since he’d now forsworn the use and sale of mind-altering substances—only to be undercut by his sister’s denunciation.