The year of the Lucy
- Автор: Маккефри Энн
- Язык: английский
- Жанр: Научная фантастика
Электронная книга - «The year of the Lucy». Краткое содержание книги:
She turned away from him.
"Perhaps if I'd been a boy. As always for a man, it's not socially inelegant to be different. But conformity is required of women and it's… it's goddamned hard to be a bastard and a girl."
She snapped the phrase out, wrenching her body towards him to see the effect of her words.
He regarded her calmly. "Madame Frascatti told me. But your mother was married at the time of your birth."
Mirelle let out a bitter laugh. "And he would have thrown Mother out of his house if his family hadn't convinced him that that would have given the scandalmongers a field day. So Mother was permitted to remain… but don't think that she didn't pay for it, day after day. And don't think I didn't. Oh, not physically. That wouldn't be in the well-bred tradition of the Barthan-Mores. Oh, why did you have to bring it up? It has spoiled a perfectly lovely day."
She turned from him again, crossing her arms on her chest, glaring out the window.
"Actually, I hadn't meant to mention it, Mirelle. I hope you believe that."
He waited for a reply. Then she felt him move to stand right behind her. From the corner of her eye, she could see his hands rising to curl firmly about her shoulders. She jerked her chin up in rejection of his apologetic gesture.
"Sometimes the very devil gets into my tongue when I'm with you, Mirelle. I knew you'd be sensitive to your parentage. I wasn't even looking for the picture when I ran across it. I had every intention of forgetting that I'd ever seen it except that you look so much like him, it's hard to ignore. He was scowling in the photo, much the same way you are right now."
The contrition in his voice had blended into amusement at the comparison and she jerked her chin higher. Then he reached for the album. She heard him shuffling the thick pages. And, although she had a tremendous desire to look, she averted her eyes when he first put the photo in front of her. One glimpse undid her resolve, because it was not only her face that stared back at her, but Nick's, when he got in one of his rebellious sullen moods.
"So that's where Nickie gets it," she said. "See, the browline here," and then she remembered, "but you haven't met Nick. Oh, Lord, what time is it?"
"Quarter to three?"
"I've got to get home. Tonia'll be there any minute."
He looked down at her for a long moment, then took the photo which she had thrust at him, not so much because it was of her father but because it still belonged to Howell.
"Well, you've seen the setting now," he said as he ushered her out, "although I'd prefer something to go in the music room. I'll find space for it, believe me," and he grinned as she glanced back at the crowded room. At the front door, he took both her hands in his. "Believe me, Mirelle, I didn't mean to open up old wounds."
"It's all right, Jamie."
"Now what settled you on 'Jamie'?"
"You don't like it?"
"Indeed I do but 'Jim' is the logical nickname."
"Who said I was logical? And you're just not a Jim or Jimmy," she said as she slid into the passenger's seat.
Tonia was just descending from her bus as Mirelle and Jamie drove up. The child's eyes widened at the sight of the Thunderbird. She behaved creditably during the introduction and then went obediently to change out of her school clothes.
"You have a calming effect on my daughter," Mirelle said with a laugh as Jamie followed her into the studio.
"She doesn't resemble you at all."
"No, she takes very definitely after her father's mother. A bit of astute genetic foresight on my part, I assure you."
Tonia bounced promptly back into the studio and right out again.
"Mr. Howell is here about the commission he asked me to do, so this is business, not social. Food, which is your current order of business," Mirelle said firmly, "is located in the kitchen. Do not, I repeat, do not, eat the icing without eating all the cake underneath it."
Jamie chuckled when the child had left.
"If I don't make the instructions explicit, the next thing I know the damage is done and I get the wide-eyed stares of outraged innocence and 'But you didn't say not to, Mother'." Jamie laughed outright at her mimicry. "Then there was the time," Mirelle went on, grinning over the incident, "when Steve came down late one Sunday morning and found Roman and Nick playing football with the breakfast honeydew melon. Only it was very ripe and did not drop-kick well."
Jamie roared.
"I'm not the avuncular type and your children sound more than this semi-bachelor can take in one afternoon. I'm in town for a while, so if you have any ideas, may I come over and watch you work? Or do observers make you nervous?"
"Hardly," Mirelle said, waving a hand in Tonia's direction, "the kids have even charged admission to watch the real live sculptor at work."
She waited at the door until he had driven out of sight and then turned thoughtfully back to the studio. Tasso was on his windowsill, old now and very grey about the muzzle. She stroked him, smiling over his violent purring response.
It had been such a shock to see a picture of her father. She hadn't thought of Lajos Neagu for years. Not since the terrible bitter battle with Steve and his parents over her bastardy. When they were first engaged, she had told Steve because she felt that he deserved to know the truth. He had been a little taken aback but had laughed it off. He had assumed that both her parents were dead. It hadn't occurred to him until then that her surname and her mother's stage name were the same. (Mirelle had stopped using Barthan-More when she was sent to the States in 1940 to escape the bombing of Britain. By then, Mirelle had known the full story, and had refused even the legal fiction of her mother's husband's name.)
Mirelle had seen her natural father only once, at a distance, when he'd been attending an exhibition of some of his portraits, donated by their owners for this charity showing. Mirelle had been intensely surprised, therefore, to benefit under his will along with his legal heirs. It had been that reference to her legacy in the newspapers which had touched off the nightmarish scenes with Steve's parents and, later, with Steve.
Roman had just been born so the inheritance ought to have been very welcome. Steve refused to touch a cent of it. He tried to make her refuse the bequest. He'd accused her of ruining his chances of success with the Company with the publicity of the announcement accompanying the will. He had requested a transfer from Allentown to escape what he termed the unwelcome notoriety and what he was certain was derision from friends and neighbors. It had been a cowardly and silly act on his part but his parents had made him feel unbearably ashamed of his choice of wife.
It had taken Mirelle nearly a year to recover from the shock and hurt. She had felt so betrayed by Steve's inexplicable disloyalty. If only Mother Martin had not made so much of it… If only Steve had stuck up for her … To prove to him, his parents and herself, that she was not at all like her mother, Mirelle had redoubled her efforts to be a perfect wife and exceptional mother and, to achieve those ends, turned into a cleaning shrew and an inflexible disciplinarian.
They had moved from Allentown to Ashland and there Nick had been born. She'd never told Steve how much Nick resembled her infamous father, but Mirelle regarded that as a bit of compensatory justice and had treasured Nick all the more.
Then Mirelle had met Lucy, and Lucy had helped mend the breach between them. And then kindly bullied Mirelle back to sculpting. When Steve saw how much Fred and Lucy Farnoll evidently admired and respected Mirelle, he began to forget the bar sinister. The stone of social ostracism dropped in the small puddle of Allentown had sent out very few ripples, despite what Mother Martin had shrilly asserted. No one in Ashland, had they noticed the small newspaper item, ever connected the infamous Lajos Neagu with that nice Mrs. Martin who did creche figures for the church.